04.27.24

today was okay overall so i'll talk about my week too. two very good points today. i watched utena w d and it was such a beautiful point of circularity, after having watched it the first time, the same copy, nine years ago as a girl. so much has stayed the same - i'm blessed to still have my parents so close to me, i still cry at animation - yet there's also been beautiful additions to my life that i'm so happy about, beautiful people. then, there's also been what's almost directly arisen from watching utena all those years ago, and that's my interest in feminist politics and philosophy. i had never engaged with philosophy before this show, and the post structuralism influences my academic work today. another, but more superficial point, is that i bought lovely shoes for my work outfits. the most important thing of all though, is earlier this week i was elected as a society committee member. it's not like i'm the president of the us, but this is such a fantastic way to network. i thought i had cut myself out of a position by not applying to be a simple volunteer - hubris - so seeing the email meant i ran out to tell my parents with true joy and elation. it made my day and my week. everything else is ok, i'm in a place in life where, if everything stayed this way forever, i'd be so happy. knock on wood and pray to god!

04.18.24

today was lovely. i woke up a little early, changed into my pretty dress outfit, and did my makeup. my skin has been so beautiful ever since i started sticking with my skincare routine and also using a charcoal scrub. the charcoal scrub is especially lifesaving. then i had a wonderful breakfast with my dad in the sunlight. afterwards, i walked to the small store a couple of blocks away and it was like super humid and a bit warm, but i bought a cool drink (peach monster! sugar free!) and when i came back i saw a brown kitty that i was able to snag a picture of. afterwards, i watched kimi no na wa w d. i cried at multiple parts of the film; he called it not just a film but "an experience" which i agree with absolutely. such a beautiful show! i was also able to get a little bit done i'm halfway done with a presentation, sent out emails asking for pdf copies of research articles, and also have good notes for how to upgrade my introduction in my article. there were some tough spots in my day, i got overwhelmed trying to find a decent copy of the movie - i hate not being in control, and i cried out of frustration. after that though, all good. afterwards my day hasn't been the best, kind of boring, kind of guilty about not getting as much done, but i've done a lot to the website so i'm hoping i can forgive myself in the future.